I was in a cycle of going on stage, not knowing the choreography, being unprepared, and really just feeling STUCK. It was like no matter what I did I never felt ready and never felt like I was enough.
I felt like I was trying to move forward, but my feet were stuck in quicksand.
You know that feeling. It’s like the harder you try, the more bogged down you become. Before you know it, despite all your effort, it’s hard to breathe, and you have no idea how you’ll get out of this pit that’s pulling you down.
I could physically feel the tension up to my ears, like the quicksand in the trap.
There was literally pressure throbbing in my head from living a life that was becoming more than I could handle.
And by the end of that year, it was evident: I knew if I kept living this way, I would get sick.
Here’s the thing though, I loved everything I was doing!
The dancing and the healing practice were precisely what I wanted.
So why did I feel burnt out? Why did I feel stuck? Why did I feel my body breaking down?
I realized I wasn’t in alignment with what I deeply wanted.
(Not to mention I was fresh off yet another heartbreak.)